dull & boring. read it or not.

theres a thought inside my head that ive been trying to let out. let see if i can elaborate it here.

emmm. Break up or Broke up.
if the definition in relationship means you go your way and i go my way and things just doesnt work out between us this lately or things just dont go our way. or maybe the reason is more than that.

first thing might popped out inside your head is 'my life will be miserable or i cant do this or maybe this is just a very bad decision and i will be devastated or maybe my life would goes bad without you around me and so the reason goes so on and on.

being in a relatioship really gives us a very big changes in our life. and you do know that. but sometimes i can tell that being in a relationship is sucks! like you have to follow all his/her rules. no offence btw im not being sarcastic here. (im sorry if you do feel that not my intention tho, im just letting out my thoughts) okay continue. then get jealous of every single things. one of my reason for why im not ready for the relationship now is, i hate being a jealousy person and i know thats a normal thing. either me or him the one who's being soo jealous. another thing is time limit. you know sometimes when you hang out with your girlfriends or boyfriends they sometime will warned you like 'do not hang out until mid night and bla bla bla. then next thing is watch out what youre wearing do not dress to sexy or too flirty HAHA and this is very silly. ive been there and i know how do girls feel when theyre not allowed to wear whatever they want. just when i recall back all the things that ive been through in relationship i realised that how lame i was and how dumb i was. but its okay, atleast we learned something from the past.

what happened in the past just let it stay in the past.

not to forget theres always ups and down t relationship. fight for nothing,mad for nothing,arguing about the silly things, and whatever. according to this ups and down it teach us on how to be strong and to be more mature in handling every sort of situation. that is why we need to think more positive when we're facing this break up thingy.

it might be hurts at first or maybe you feel like devastated. because when were facing this break up thing, your life will change drastically. like you lost interest in eerything you did,loosing more apetite,or maybe you might not be able to take care of yourself. ah maybe.

healing process at this time it may took a very long time or maybe a life time. but, we have to remember that 'everything is gonna be okay' it will. its okay to cry at first its okay to let it out at your friends or your closest one. theres no limit to cry. if you want to cry you cry. your tears will stop when you suddenly realised that you need to get going and move on. i know everyone will try anything just to heal the pain some did it in a good way and some did it in a wrong way. i can honestly tell you that i almost killed my self when i cant barely stand the pain. but luckily i had my sweetest friends around me. for that time being your friend or your bestfriends is what you needed for that very moment. you need a shoulder to cry on, you need arm to wrapped you,you need a words to make you strong. its not that easy.

then after the break up youre free to do what ever you want but theres a limit for that. haha im telling this whole thing was base on my experience.

just remember that it will be okay you deserve to have someones better and you are way too awesome for him/her. if you love someone set them free if they come back to you it means they're yours. haha ive read those phrases ,sometimes it might be true and sometimes NOT! why not? cause ive been there. he set me free but im not coming back. cause i had enough for 'keep comin back for more' its time for me to breathe easily.

so as if for the next time i'll be in a relationship im hoping for a healthy relationship and i want something good for me and for him. but for now, i just dont think im ready for that. ive been in love with someone who used to brighten my everyday life but now im falling apart and im trying to get back on track and start things all over again. i guess im okay now (-:

i dno what the hell im tokin about if you dont get it exit this site -_- . i guess i ran out of idea. im ready to sleep now.