my every little thing that i had

maybe we can stop this goodbye ;(

2011-12-07T12:34:00.000+08:00

needed some morphine..

2011-12-07T12:25:00.004+08:00

its day two..

i just cudnt stop crying my heart out everytime every seconds when thought of you passed by :(

i dont even have the guts the let what i shud have been telling u all i know im all weak i cudnt even stop u from leaving ;( tell me how to get u off my mind. here i am again... i just cudnt get use a day without you :( how can i do this :(

i miss you hear me .... :'((

numb

2011-09-15T14:19:00.000+08:00

your action speaks more louder than your words.

time is money

2011-03-15T21:16:00.002+08:00

yelu.

i had the worst week ever last week pressure pressure im VERY muchh depressed confronting my own problem. i know its a simple thing but i dont know why i cant even handle it. sigh thats the worst part of me =(

i hope this week will be good i should be happy yess i should holiday is arnd the corner soo i bye bye brunei nexttttt week and YEAAAAYYY! let me have some of my time. im gna work like a workaholic this week until my annual leave!

cuti cuti cuti sexiiciiitedddd much? hahahahahahaha.

hello 21st

2011-03-03T01:18:00.004+08:00

well it was my birthday yesterday and im welcoming my life to be 21 year old in age omg im growing! =(

well it was a very fantastic birthday ever! no surprise was made i shall say but.. it was the best birthday i ever had in my life celebrating with a new people arnd me new environment in life and the only person who always gne b there for my birthday day my one and only sayang ELIN! i love her to bits! the only person which is very very important i shud have in my birthday! is a MUST.

its different from the last few years never been this happy on my birthday spent the whole day with the lovelies people alive the very very most wonderful people i ever had in my life =)

not to forget all the loveliesssss bestfriends who greeted me which i really appreciate much for that you guys are just awesomeeeeeee! THANK YOU THANKYOU THATS THE LEAST I CAN SAY!

its quite touching to see how my mom also greeted me on for like 15 mins before my bday greeted me even its a simple text messages its just lavly!

well atleast for this birthday i had another loveliest personn also who willingly to called me just to talk to me till my birthday its justt... something i never had in my life! to whom it may concern thank you soo much! <3>

i spent the whole afternoon with the babies lunch out trying to get ourselves high on redbull haha i kno its pacah.. we ate untill we felt bloated from noon then kuntinue again in the evening.. god i love my birthday! really! its okay to be happy atleast for my bday kannnn.

how does it feel waking up being 21st?

awful i must say atfirst i cant even slept well in the morning my phone kept on ringing but those people who texted me theyre just awesome you guys really made my day! eventho cant even rep every each of the txt messages well.. thankyou is the only thing i can say..

and i even got the cutest present from the lavly people..

here what elin got fr me

a very beautiful necklace which it has a meaning actually well its naice <3

here is what leeza got for me

LOVESSS

its a mug and its said..

cuteeee kannnnnnn! sweeeetnesss!

and the above one is from ayeeeeeeppppppppppp!

CUTE!

with a papal ponytail!!!!

aaaaaaaa cute ni kalau if i gna wear this bagg ill look soo cute i even laugh cz its soo cuteeeeeeeee!

thanks ryff thanks thankssss

anddd

last but nt least.. fossil! ive always wanted to buy fossil kali kali this is wat i got!

HAHAHA!

well more pict to post but since im using my phone to blog well soon saja arait naiiites!

yada yada yada

2011-02-21T19:51:00.003+08:00

how true!

a sudden thought reminds me that every new people revolves arnd me theyre nt the same as what i thought.. theyre just not that nice as what i thought even sometimes theyre just not that bad as what i thought. anything thats just gonna happened.. i dont give a shit =)

i do what i do for my living atleast i never get my self involve in other peoples life.

what a sudden wisdom words HAHA. i kno im awesome like zat! heeeeeeeeeee

we can pay for sunny weather

2011-02-20T18:57:00.005+08:00

its a first pic for my 2011 post heee dont mind my rum i knw it is a mess...

the weather has been soo lavly since morning.

nothing much for sunday as usual taking my day off spending the whole day at home.

ive been listing out things to buy for feb! there's actually aLOT! but.. for my own good and for my own future saving is a MUST! i just dunno why this month i spent alot of my money. until i have to go thru my SCB wich that's actually for my saving and i have to take all of my saving money thats suck! i sucks at controling my budget =(

coz everything in life is soo tempting.. i cant insist my self not to shop ts just soo addictive.

nowadays my eating appetite has been worst lately =( i crave for alot of junk food. the last time i remembered was.. mmm having mcd bet that was last week with orang malasku cakap haha. we had our take away mcd and stop by somewhere to eat.. cz kami nda sukaa eating in public laaaa haha.

i called this an addiction.

huehuehue

fin

2011-02-19T20:03:00.005+08:00

yello.

so, i blog.

rough days yet exhausting i must say.

i hate it today.

i almost saw cat get hit by a car today and it really scares the shit out of me! such a careless driver! thankgod that cat was safe. i dunno whats happened next cz i saw tht cat was very kesiannnnnn =(

apakan! i dont know what to post. its been a while.

i missessss my friendss soo much. the good old times sigh sigh. its just sad to see how thing falling apart between us.. how i wish i could bring it back the time we had. if only i had a time machine i would =(

im at work right now hehe. im blogging while im at work thats soo rare.. i dint actually do this but since im sitting far from everyone i guess thats a good reason to blog. i think soo.. soo boring ah today.

ait end

bonjour

2011-02-17T16:03:00.001+08:00

been changing my blog layout quite alot but actually i dint even try to update my blog hehe. well this is my first post for 2011 on my blog. well hello =)

fri

2010-12-24T12:52:00.002+08:00

snap!

currently at work.

2011 is around the corner. ive been busier with work plus my endless shift which it didnt allow me to have my holiday ;( and a proper rest. ive been chasing and runing out of time. thats how life has been treating me lately.

I NEED A VACATION ;(

hibernate

2010-12-15T02:39:00.002+08:00

life has been treating me good all the time.

talking about december..

it keeps bringing me back to the past few years. then, 2011 is coming.. cant wait mahn.

like a rain drops

2010-11-12T20:43:00.001+08:00

soo fly..you got me lifted

shut up and put your money where your mouth is

2010-10-23T18:32:00.004+08:00

helu.

next week is payday! i started to list out my shopping list!

on top of everything i wanna buy wrist watch its either swatch or bb g or ... im in need of watch since my last wrist watch is dead already :(

i still hate the fact that i gained weight! but i just hate it when i see someone who's struggling hard to get kurus. haha. its juat maybe tht im jealous! pasal aku makan makan makan. pasal pun everything is soo tempting and slrrrruups!

i now crave for pidzuh. i wna eat pidzuh! ive been eating nasi katok for every 2 nights in row everytime i had my evening shift. but still nasi katok kaka is the best! if i dint eat it in a week i'll crave for it.. steaadiiii (Y)

and now i still feel hungry. hello happy tummy!

shut down

2010-10-17T11:18:00.002+08:00

ive been shutting down my blog for a while just because i dont have time to update my blog plus i just cant spend a little for this. ive been busy plus exhausted. i gained weight thats the awesomest part i guess... haha NOT. coz ive been eating every single time. every single hours. oo nooo!

my room is like a shipwreck now. clothes are thrown everywhere which i dont even have time to put it back inside the closets :(

i now is having my day off then for tomorrow i started to hate monday because.. before i used to had my day off sun and mon which i dont have any trouble with monday but starting tomorrow im just gna pray a it will be a better day hopefully monday will be good to me :)

oh last night.. i dreamt about i was given an ipod. mimpi indah :p and it made me think like i want an ipod! for myself ;(

i dont have your words dude!

2010-07-14T19:39:00.001+08:00

if only i could put a little trust in every words that you've told me before

2010-07-14T01:00:00.002+08:00

if only

how?

2010-07-14T00:19:00.003+08:00

sigggggh
i dont know i cant sleep my tummy feel empty and so do i ;(
well, how many time should i spilled this words ' i miss you i miss you and i miss you' i think i need to let it go now? shall i? or shall i not! smash some eggs on my fayce! why on earth would i say 'shall i not!' BUMMER! such an ass! how i wish you could tell me something before you leave without a words and it all left unspoken.

i wonder if i ever cross your mind dear boy? i guess NO!
have you ever wonder how painful i am here to be left hanging? NO U DONT!
you miss me? NO NOT AT ALL FOR YOU!
did u even think of me? totally no :'(
you happy to see me like this? OH YES YOU ARE :')

how i hate when emotional is attacking me. it just made heels over head thinking bout it how i hate when it always be you for everything that came across my mind. sigh sigh sigh.

can my life just skip this part? being pathetic asshole. ooooh DANG IT!

god. im so stressed out. what will you do when youre stressed? you'll eat alot! well i am that person! i feel like eating like bunch of fuds like burgers,fries,ice creams and etc etc except babi ok! though i always bring up babi for eg 'gilaaa babi nyaman tu eh di grill bah!' I DONT EAT BABI! IN MA REAL LIFE!
ive been eating alot this lately and its been 2 weeks in a row i missed my workout session every evenin. i guess i'll be fat like babi for few weeks more ;) ELEK SHA OK?!

the reason for my stressed is :
- i suppose to have my driving test by this week i wanted it to be this week but.. postponed to nextweek? oh wait a sec.. NEXTWEEK? when i was on the phone yesterday i was like 'r u kiddin me wuman?' nextweek? ho shizzle! arent i suppose to be working? yess i am ! i'll be starting working nextweek but WHAT THE HELL is my driving test will be next week? damnit! but.. its actually my fault tho i suppose to do it lastweek but im afraid that i'll flunk again so i take it this week then this week is fulled then i'll be waitting nextweek! come on! have a little kesian for me please inda dapat kah? its not like im gonna do the test like 2-3 hours! fuckit! srsly this thing is like over the limit of my anger.
- then dad is like mad at me like im the one who brought all the problem. well FINE! i know it WAS MY FAULT! coz i cancelled my test but please put a little feeling for this daughter of his who needs him in any condition that she'll be going through! i still need my dad okay!
- another thing this HAS TO BE A SHHSSSSSH! i cant tell not every problem of mine i can let it out here. but seriously its heartbreaking ;(
- IM NOT WELL PREPARED FOR ANYTHING EVERYTHING! SIGH! :(

so adious for now.

happy birthday amar :DD

cause im a loser in love

on top of it

2010-07-11T19:16:00.003+08:00

hai mi blog.
it was a fine weekend. ive been spending a lot of time with my mom this lately and it was quit good just the two of us and with azie. that was the first time just the two of us i mean me and mom went for a movie out. awesooomeeeeee :))) i think its a good thing since i'll be away from home for i dont know how long.

dad and the sibs has been away for KK since last thursday. they left us :( and im jealous! siuk jua tu they got to go shopping in KK while me no shopping. i need to buy soo many stuffs. i need to buy flats! and dad got me one braaahhzil teeshurt! awesome one! HEHEHEHE.

and this is on top of my wishlists!

baby G! :( want want want want want!

fever go away :(

2010-07-06T12:28:00.004+08:00

havent feel better yet ;( i think im having fever right now.

eaten some meds just now but why is it i still feel the same =S i dont wanna get sick like staying on bed all day long or maybe for 2 or 3 days straight? soo unproductive! and also having this fever it took away my appetite to eat. i dont feel like eating something ;(

watched remember me lastnight before i off to bed then i watched it halfway then i continued again this morning then again i put it on pause. weird habit haaa. sampai kapan pun nda abis ni.

i hate waitting! i havent receive my medical report yet! everything needs to be done by this week! and i think i need to go to bandar by this week!

bring me supping here now. i'll be baik like ASAP!

HEHEHE.

one of those day

2010-07-04T16:39:00.004+08:00

hi eeeeeeyahhhhh!

well, im no longer a volunteer worker in HSSB hospital so here i am im back with the same life like used to! but... im still waiting for a confirmation for me to start working i dont know when cause im still waiting for my medical report batah yo!

i dont wanna state my reason why im choosing work rather than school.

soo eyah! last thursday was my lastday working. the best thing is i dint get to buat lots of work pasal theres a student attachment who's taking over my place.

can i just post my pictures aku malas taip hehehe.

them both are awesome! (Y)

my desk

AHEHEHEHEHEHE

AWESOME!

apart of my work

mi workplace!

were living for the golden lie

2010-06-24T17:47:00.003+08:00

that is our team logo 'tick' means 'anything can do' mr leong said hahaha!

ALOHA!

so i had a very long day today but it was fun! i had something to be attend for these few days. as for today i had bengkel that i attended today which is awesome. suddenly out of the blue i dont know why my team picked me as a team leader? did that thing just happened? team leader? how good i am gonna a team leader? NOT REALLY! when we had to discuss about something i dont actually give much opinions as much as they did i only gonna let out a little of my opinion which is actually not a very good one but actually im a little bit proud of myself cause im helping sikit and they used it! =D

another thing which is not okay to me is making a decision. well.. so i had this offer another offer. first im glad to know that im accepted to be apart of mtssr-ians students. ok when i knew about this im soo happy to the core! then 2 weeks after that i got a phone called that i was asked to go to the dst HQ and take my offer letter and i was like NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! WHATTTT! this is aint funny you know! and so this is what i have to think! and i need to make my own choices. dad even told me this morning and he sed t me .."think wisely and think whats best for you...youre not a kid anymore youre a big girl and you know whats best for you.." well that what he sed t me this morning and aku diam saja =/ cause the thing is im stucked and confuse. i need motivation tho.
im not happy nor excited knowing bout this its just a decision! its a decision mahhhn! god! im a grown up girl already eh? HAHA! thats what ami actually sed to me on msn i was saying that "eh when i grow up i wanna be a pilot" and he sed "YOURE ALREADY GROWN UP"!!! haha funny!

well thats it.

Alhamdulillah atas kurnia mu yg kau berikan ya Allah

soo much for my day

2010-06-21T18:57:00.002+08:00

it takes and hour for me to think about the title of my post.

well! today! i had a rough day! lots of swearing! a little bit of emotional distractions and annoyed!

let me break it down a little bit bout my day.

morning i had driving class. i know kesian sudah 20 barutah kan belajar? HAHAHA! u can laugh yer ass off! and so tomorrow will be continueing the lesson. i hope i can get through it this time! GUE BISA!

while at work, everything was just fine. my work is not that much. i only got to jalan like 3 times today! the place ive been today was admin and physio!

dad is starting to be concern about me thats cute anyway =')

im like uhh hungry all the time and im afraid that im gaining weight again because havent do workout since ive started working. most of the times ai spent with eating. fyi ive been on diet the saddest thing is...i dint loose any weight so thats it. ok bye.

half of my heart

2010-06-20T13:27:00.001+08:00

uhm uhm uhm

speechless

2010-05-21T12:46:00.002+08:00

it came out of nowhere..
"no it isnt"
sigh.

things happened and somehow it will change

2010-05-14T22:12:00.003+08:00

first thought that i have before i log in my blog is 'to blog or not to blog' so i choosed 'i blog!'.

well, btw
i miss my friends ;( i wonder if they ever miss me while im gone for a while i miss those days that we had. i miss sushi with them i miss us being soo gila till late night. i even miss skyping with navila its been a while i know ;( i miss having some random thoughts with elin and then laugh our ass off! oh god.

OFCOURSEEEEE!
this crazy lil creature on earth!

JENGS! ;)

i miss my bbgurl ;(

somehow i just cant keep my ego that i miss him ;s SERIOUSLY! let him know that i miss him ;')
ok then.
OK I NEED SOMEONE TO SMASH SOME EGGS ON MA FACE!
you just broke my heart k. thanqiu.

bonne nuit. my thoughts just vanished! eehehehe.

hey soul sister aint that mister mister

2010-05-10T12:02:00.002+08:00

=)
hi world

2010-05-09T11:29:00.001+08:00

MISSES THIS BOY SOO MUCH!

the love and the life that you gave

2010-05-09T10:25:00.002+08:00

HAPPY MAMA DAY!
no one can ever replace you as my mom! cause you are my mom my one and only mom for always and forever. i may not be the best child you ever had but you will always had my love and to be consider as 'OUR' love i meant 'US'. thank you for being patient with me dear mammy! i love you and happy mama day :')

done!

hi hi. morning. im an early riser for sunday! its the 3rd sunday i woke up pretty much early than the others =D thats what makes me happy. just so you know im deactivating my facebook i think i need a break! facebook is just one of the sickness that will never gonna make me stop clicking the link! morning,afternoon,evening,night and before bed facebook is sort of like my bedtime story! facebook facebook facebook! i need life! but atleast dont spent too much time on facebook eh? haha GET A LIFE NOY!

i had something random in my mind.
well lets be random.

i hate it when a guy ..

- totally desperate for something? lets say for eg : 'hey this is my number/email and pls mc/add me..' and when u gave them ur phone num it ended up to be like this 'where do you live miss? can i see you tomorrow?' fuck the whattt? ask me again like that mister i'll come up with more excuses =) and FYI.. why cant you take things slow huh?

- sweet talker! ohhh FUCK YOU ASSHOLE! i dont have any trust for this kind of guy! in one minute he said this to you and for another minute he might say the same thing to other so HEY MISTER I AINT THAT STUPID ENOUGH OR NOT YET STUPID! I HAVE A BRAIN WHICH SOMETIMES CAN BE SMARTER THAN U! *ROLLSEYES. haha

- PERVERT! and again F you F you! they always got the hint for something dirttyy or maybe lets say you just known him for 1 day and the next day he started to talk something dirty. EWWWYY! MAHN! dont think that every girl is cheap yo! dont think that asking every girl to have sex with you is COOL! THAT IS SO NOT COOL! THAT IS SO DESPERATE!

- 'OHH HE'S SOMEONE FIANCE/BOYFRIEND' pleaaaaaaaseeeee oh pleaseeeeeeeeee! boy! when youre in a relationship do have to fake your status to other girl? dunchu love your gf ay? do you think thats fair? have u ever think about 'what comes around goes around' ? heres the thing 'DONT BE SELFISH =)'

- show off? DUH! LIKE I CARE! and btw 'errr i dont ask for any of the things you've told me tq'

- a guy who tryin to act cool but actually MAHN YOURE NOT THAT COOL ACTUALLY! *do the annoying face then flips hair! hahahahahaha! why is it so hard to just be yourself!

enough noy enough.
i know i sounds like judgemental. but its actually no im not its just that hmm its just a thought yo! no offend ok! theres nothing to be related to someone or whattsoveevrrr! its just my thoughts that i had which i wanna spit it out here.

whoa! thats a long post i feel like my brain is starting to work out!

ok done PEACE YO! hehe
have a nice and great sunday =)

heart breaker

2010-05-06T11:38:00.002+08:00

i just read something. the convo between me and him. was actually lastyear but when i read it back its just made me feel like stabbing this heart out. awwww sweet but sad ;')

emotional attack!

and shit i almost cried. sedih. cause i actually want him but hell! what was i thinking? OMG OMG. and until now i still had the same feeling towards him. kesian i feel like kesian with myself. after all the things that ive been through but still i cant get over him. im just tired with lying and pretend like i dont care! pretend like im over him but actually inside im dying! this is the reason why i still can get myself along with other guy. this is sucks! im just pathetic i guess.

i remember everything! i meant everything! but its sad that you can just easily forgot about it. how i wish how i wish cause this wish will never came true =')

ok end.

hey heartbreaker! GRACIAS.

all you have to do is meet me half way. all you have to do is say yess

2010-04-27T09:57:00.007+08:00

well
helu helu
im an early riser for 2 days straight hahah ok i know hehe.
random.

ohh btw MORNING LOVERLIES. and i havent shower ;D

i had you always inside my mind

2010-04-21T01:27:00.005+08:00

im trying harder to get to sleep but i FAILED! so here comes yada yada yada!
i watched skins just now i jumped to episode 7.
and we watched some horror mubi before elin fell asleep and guess what ceritanya wuuu scarry =S and now were curious bout the ending. to be continue tomorrow.
going back home might be delay to thursday. 'ya Allah sempurnakan segalanya' Amin

something is bothering me and made me feel annoyed giler!
eh aku rasa aku cool yo! i no have this you know butterfly in my stomach whenever i DOT and DOT! hahaha coolness!
went tutong town this evening accompanied elin buying kitchen stuffs and spent my last bucks on ice cream! gile! im gaining more and more calories ni yaw! ate pulut pangang in the morning and i had heavy food for lucnh then ice cream in the evening and nasi katok bb for dinner! mahn parut yo parut! nada lagi exercise ni this week. then yesterday had sushi for dinner then i ate elin punya fud lagi oohh mahhn heaven mahnn

tu her fud! nyaman pulang but i dont like the taufu and the salad but the nasi and the daging is NYUM! and this is my fav pose from her capi capi kan ulahnya? HAHA
and spotted! one words LARAP!

sebagai bukti kenyamanan the food we ate last night is looks at our plate theres nothing left! not even satu! semua habis! and i ate like 4 types of sushi and yess! i finished em semua! ai aku =(

all and all everything was awesome. elin's treat! thankyou soo much lovely! =) *senyum manis arah elin. HEEEEE.

thats the sturi about my yesterday and yesteryesterday.

TAMAT

i am so so so RANDOM

2010-04-20T10:37:00.002+08:00

yello yello!

-i feel awful.
-DOT DOT DOT! i need life. cause i think i have no life!
-i need more and more cash cause im broke.
-i hope i can do this last interview i hope i can get thru this! cause i need this life to change! once it change theres nothing to worry anymore!
-i cant wait for bungsu wedding next week. pasal at that time i think i have a life HA HA.
-do i need a motivation? i think yess!
-i wanna watch skins but elin punya skins is DOT DOT. i dunno. how come meteor garden buleh ada inside of her skins dvd. ah. kuminis punya pasal.
-before i go home i wanna borrow more dvd from elin. because JOBLESS will always happened whenever im back home.
-i need to print my CV and job application by today pokoknya everything must be done by today!
-aku rasa if i get back home tomorrow i think they'll be mad at me again esp my mom =S or maybe my dad aku rusakkan broadband nya =S
-workout workour need to be done 6 times in a week lately i worked out for only 3 times in a week. how can i get skinnier? GO NONOY!
-interview next week i havent prepare anything and im still like BLAH =(
-i feel like.. someone is hating me =(
-i hope LIFE WILL BE AWESOME
-i think my toe nail is still awesome!
-i miss umie and azie i miss the crazy times. but durang suka buli aku =(
-je ne vouz manques! yess yess yess. BELIEVE ME!
-i miss KL!
-i miss being a school student

ok enough thats it for today.

poisoned

2010-04-09T17:24:00.002+08:00

we went SEXCAPADE!
last night.
=)

it sucks that you never know deep down inside ;(

can miracle just come to me now?

2010-04-03T13:07:00.003+08:00

okay! im so fcked up right now and i had this anger deep inside me and this anger forced me to blog.

i just dont get it why would my life would be this awful than before? i just cried over this whole thing that ive been through. life is so unfair.

another thing i hate dealing with my second brother. who is totally selfish about himself and hes just dont have this responsibility on handling things which he has been told do so. come on why is it so hard for him kan talk to my dad to buy the ink printer. okay i know sekadar but WTF! i need that damn printer to work like ASAP! i got alot of things to do with it! its not like im gonna use it like saja saja but please! i just need thatdamn printer to work and got ink ok! and instead he said to me that eh mahal ink printer atu mcm blah blah blah blah alasan! asking my dad to pay for his fcking damn t-shirt yg mcm rubbish mampu ya kn becakap! ink printer which is more important than bali baju nda ya tecakap! because krg he migh be using it jua! BABI eh!
how much i hate this life already!

CANT JUST LUCK HIT ME NOW I WANT NOW! MY LIFE IS ALREADY MESSED UP NOW WHAT?

im stressiing out. so how to cope with this? workout! haha! im being good and positive! but for sometimes. hee. im staying healthy anf keeping my self fit.

eh i cannot wait this life to change. aku mau pray for a miracle to come! i just cant take it being so fucked up!
. stop complaining.

please please please let me get what what i want.

outside there's a box car waitting

2010-04-01T22:45:00.002+08:00

outside the family stew ow ow ow~
mahn i kinda into this song. soundtrack from 500 days of summer and i preferred the one yg this guy sang inside the movie awesome!

heres my first post for april!

i just realised that whenever i tried to blog i always type it half way and then i pressed 'save now' and so the post will be left just like that. i have the idea at first but then all of the idea runs away just like that..

my last saturday night was preetty awesome! i had lots of fun and not until i came back home =S i dont meant like i hate going back home its just im just tired with this a little bit of drama thing. which always made me say that my life is pretty sucks! i hate arguement! never really i am a big fan of arguemantation. not with everyone nor my siblings its just gonna make me feel like an idiot for not talking with its either my mom or my brother. cause its seriously kills me in the inside. because, i just dont like to be this person mcm kena left out and inda kena care while others kena treat like baek and to avoid that situation i just need to be nice with them eventho some of the things that made them mad at me was actually not my fault! but yeah! i surrender mcm you have to admit it its your fault! which is actually bukan. my my my what a hardest life im going through. okay dont complained i dont wanna stress my self on this.

its 11.oopm and i shud have gone pee and brush my teeth instead im stuck sitting on my bed and listening to meaghan smiths.

bye march! here comes april.. adios

i just thought my world would be a better place if you were in it.

2010-03-28T20:38:00.002+08:00

well..so far my weekends was just fine =)

im running.. im running back to you

2010-03-24T03:34:00.002+08:00

im up in the middle of the night this is just a common thing to me i guess this things happened everytime i fell asleep early. i hate my random thoughts and i hate this stupid mosquito. i got bitten by this stupid mosquito on my forehead babi kan? while im sleeping!

its 3.40 in the morning and i have to up like at 5am! my god.

lets pour something random again here!

i just think that ive been crazily insane this lately. something really bugging me. i think im just being somekind of pathetic person i mean THE MOST PATHETIC PERSON!
why? why? why?
why cant i just be this person who move on easily and forget everything and just let it go? and sometimes things just made me wonder that are you still holding on to me or am i the only one who still feel the same way this is lame you know. i hate this feeling.

aku banci talk about this dot dot dot. end it.

i miss you the old you =(

stonned

2010-03-19T11:29:00.006+08:00

hi bloggie! its friday and im still waitting and i still pray for the same thing to happen.
luck please hit me like A.S.A.P!!!!
i just knew that its school holiday already and i just cant wait to get out from heya! but im broke =(
no money no honey..
i hate being random but i always be that person =/ he he heee heee

liat ni i have tons of dvd to watch yeeeha! dvd marathon! i just finished watching laguna beach omg im soo yesterday type of person and i wanna go to kuminis like soo bad!
i got new bottle and i dont like drinking water pakai cawan anymore =/

my not so awesome part of the rum. i want to renovate my room jadi lawa like berabis and i wanna paint my rum jadi pink again but this time i want it to be like pink kuat and i wanna design the wall! like i sed no money no honey!

i even imagined how my future bedroom wud look like kesian =(
or maybe my future wardrobe room..ni cemani
AND I JUST ADORE THIS LAAAAYDEEZ

aku mau jalan on the street like this! with that boy blazer with that louboutins on! i wanna look fckin fab! like her awesome right? and be kurus like this!
and another thing is..
i love mmmmegan POX! im working out to have body like this
or maybe to be HOT and smart like

agent walker!

ok enough. no laip?

if it does not exist

2010-03-15T00:48:00.006+08:00

hehehehello my blog.

apparently i cant fall back to sleep. i had a trouble with sleeping to early and then got up in the middle of the night cause my phone just annoyed me with someone mc me.
i had a good weekend finally! dad got this charity sale at his hos yesterday and were involve! i mean my family. malas to describe this and that and so..

this is cool mahnnn! if only dad gonna pasang tis at home nda payah ku workout on the treadmill everyday! this thing is awesome! pasang at my rum lagi cool!

one word = LARAP!

since im up and i cant get asleep im gonna continue watching laguna beach! eyaaah! LC! tpi aku pikir dulu cause im running out of dvd krg aku abis watch this laguna beach i got nothing left to watch =S cause im just done watching supernatural s3 and i just finished em all of the episodes except for korea series cause i feel malas to watch tpi got 2 more disc to watch!

one more emo-ish pose before i go
mahn! aku mcm got muscle there HAHA! pigilah muscle!

i still

2010-03-12T14:22:00.003+08:00

ive been spending my day like babi this lately! i watched dvd from the afternoon till night i even slept while my tv and dvd is still ON! im being soo emotional this lately! my mood was like on and off! and whats new to me i work out like 7 times in a week already! and for this week i once did my work out in the morning! and workout like berabisly gila! i wanna have body like megan fox or lauren conrad or apa lagi mcm mmmm eyah maya karin! she's effin kurus when i watched 'pisau cukur' HAHA! WHATEVER! tapi i envy the body cause i want my body to be like that! hish i dont care what people gonna say about why wud i wanna be kurus! i just hope that i loses some fats and weight! i know being 47kg is a normal body weight but i wanna get back to 43kg! like before! dont care dont care! i wanna be skinny and healthy! thats my aim!

im home alone and im bored im watching everybody loves raymond on starworld inda ku liat bnrnya.

and one thing ive been waitting for a good feedback i hope i can get a good feedback ya Tuhan! waitting is killing! i sometimes feel like i wanna jump and die! hahaha! dramatic much? buang tah kali telipun ku ani eh!

i miss you =( god tell him that i miss him. i just dont have the guts.

ive been wanted to shop like very much! i wanna watch 'alice in wonderland' i wna buy dvds and series like banyak sekali. aku mau EVERYTHING!

i hope weekends will treat me good =(

all said and done k.

2.57 am

2010-03-08T02:49:00.003+08:00

i denied.

here i am. i cant sleep. i had soo many thoughts inside my head plus im hungry and plus ohh dude! i want that body! oh yeah! her body! megan body! =( i did workout this lately i mean i did alot of workout! even when im at elin place. i dunno if i gain or loose weight. hmm im trying hard.
i was actually physically and mentally exhausted and i dunno why i ended up like this.
what the fck am i talkin?
ok dot.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ME! IM FIFTEEN!

2010-03-04T13:32:00.007+08:00

its actually 20 =x im getting older and im very afraid of getting older =S
and how does it feel waking up being 20?
AWSUM! =D yeeeeha!

i got surprised by elin and SEXCAPADE! for lunch on my birthday! and for dinner mom treat! im happy that my fb wall flooded with birthday wishes! and thanks a LOT! also thanks to mi babies! mi girls! esp elin,umie,azie,navil, nien and the gang for greeting me thru skype and eqah for the post on yer blog baby! love ye! and banyak eh! but ze most important things is YOU GUIZE ARE AWESOME!

i got new roomate so here i present you

miemie and linlin

elin punya cupcake! i request for tis! havent eat tis sayanggg wah ='(

miss dhamien!

P/S : i supposed to post this on thursday and delayed! hehe! ive been leaving this post abandoned for 2 days! i dunno why everytime i blog i'll ended up with saving this post.

happiness is always there whenever youre with me

2010-02-24T00:46:00.005+08:00

AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!
banyak thoughts inside my head! i miss you i miss you and i miss you can you feel me? :-( hessshishhh.

ok MERDEKA! too late actually tapi nda apa.
i went to bandar with ze la familia today! i bought myself tis magazine which ive been dying to read like 2 weeks ago? then kan abis bulan feb baru ku bali ? hahaha! always! and i got something to drools.. aku mau ani

(tapi mostly i like this one ni yg diatas!)
sama ani!

lawaaaaaaaaaaaa bah ='( if get its either one of those happy forever ku ni! this bag is soo damn lawa. im nt a big fan of coach pulang tpinya i saw tis bag on magazine kali aku like!

ok back to my emo-ish story.
i think im just being useless and dumb! trying hard pun kan neglect this one person pun inda dapat. how bodoh i am =( i dunno what he did to me until macam aku sorang saja yg still angau macam babi at him while him is actually happy enjoying life with his other half tapi aku????? trying so hard to erase him from my life is ssrly hard. susah eh! i cant just confess lagi and tell him whats inside this hati. tpi.. its killing you know! dont know why i still wish for you for my upcoming birthday! STUPID LAH! tpi everything i did or everywhere i go its just gonna reminds me of him! mcm flashback tah pulang balik that is no good. my wish for 2010 is "i wanna forget you like A.S.A.P" tapi howwww??? =( coz everytime he talked to me it feels like jantungku kan kena telan plus kuyak! will he ever know that im actually still the same?? bah ok. dot dot dot. k ani saja.

miss miss miss.

i wishh.. my hair is cemani. dot.

confessions

2010-02-15T20:37:00.003+08:00

im tired of chasing the wrong person.
im tired of trying harder.
im tired of searching for the right person.
i hate it when i try to let myself involving to this 'L' thing and i ended up with 'ignorance'.

so.. ok thats all.
but
weekends was just friggin HAWEEEESUM ;) bouncer.bbq.spending some quality times with ze family was just awesum!
i had lots of bruises. on my elbow,my knee,my chin. sakit ;(

anu apani SIUK!

ok ok. rest.

2010-02-13T11:18:00.002+08:00

youre just different. different from other. youre still that person who gonna make me constantly thinking bout you.

terrible tuesday

2010-02-09T22:57:00.004+08:00

i got up from my sleep 1 hour ago i fell asleep cause im having a very terrible headache since
afternoon due to my boredom plus something that just made my adrenaline pumping and excited to the core!

yaAllah please grant my wish =(......

no! dont think about it..
ok move on..

currently listening to starstrukk!!!!!!!!! dude im lavinnnn this song! L-O-V-E just another words i never learned to pronounce ~ haha okay random -_- hikhik

how am i ?
im alright! and i just had a lil bit of breakdown! i hate thinking about my future cause i know i dont have a nice one. i hate the way my brother always annoyed me like kuraaaayyyyzayyyy! mcm apa! always being so intended doing something made me mad like gila! very rude! gila ku ni karang handling brother cemani ani! but i love him =') arent i sweeeet? this lately i behave good kali ah! and also behave like a good sister! ha ha ! tapi theres only one thing that i hate about me.. hmm i just cant control my anger on something yg sekadar! i know it was sekadar tapi.. cubatah if youre in my shoes ! controlling my anger is the worst thing ever!

apakaaaan aku cakap ani cakap sampah! haish =/

eh aku kangennnn =( haha babi. bye.

time.. please slow down

2010-02-05T01:03:00.003+08:00

its 1.04 am ! im having insomnia! i dunno whats wrong but i woke up way too early today and still i wanna sit infront of my lappy and stare at this screen. soo unhealthy i know =( plus im sick i need to rest and i need to have a very good sleep. but i just cant.

ooooow its already feb the 5th =S oh mai! please slow down ='( i just got off from skype with navil i miss talking to this girl she's my gay skype! we used to skype like twice in a week before and its fun!nahhh! i actually got something to confess but i forgot! babi eh!

down

2010-02-04T11:52:00.002+08:00

hellooooooo im fresh to death! just got my shower! and i woke up pretty much early today at 8 ish cause mom went back home cause ada our 0nce-in-a-week maid came and bell the door but i dint hear the sound the bell cause im sleeping like theres no tomorrow. blame the ubat! the actifed that i took before i off to bed lastnight! and it also made me dream about something weird hahaha! ok back to my mom story kali she knocked like so loud! and i straight jump from the bed and it made my brain goes so slowtil now!

all and all i had a good sleep but not a good dream =/

oohh babi i want sushi again.

and i had this cough and flu and this morning i barely lost my voice and my throat is srsly killing me! i had this sore throat this morning sakit nya the very!

guess what i almost thought today is wednesday. heish

i mean geeezzz COMEEE ON WHATT HAPPENED TO ME KANN??? i dont feel gud tis lately.

wake up in the morning feeling like p.diddy

2010-01-30T16:15:00.007+08:00

hahahahahaha! baie the title! fck!

well hello saturday!

should i be sad or should i just move on anf ferget about it? >=/ sigh..
okay move on
went shopping for tonight event this morning with my mama. we'll be having this bbq at our place its my brother pulang the one yg mengusut kemati kan have this bbq! and he'll be inviting his friends and guess i'll be boring tunait eh? im going to eat like theres no tomorrow! jgntah diet biartah fat like vavi! dont careeeee anymore! im stressing out! emo kemati kejiwa like berabis! haysss =S

mi beybi bradaaaaa mi lav de bery!
and ani
NYANYAT! KU! GILA NI GILA!
and
p/s : to elin be jeles aku makan sushi again today and KUNGRETULISIN TO U BEYBEY CAUSE U GOT THE JOB! terima nanti dapat lanja aku SIKSKIPID ahhhhhh! hahahahahahaha!. sayang kau :8p

sexcapade day

2010-01-26T19:57:00.005+08:00

haish i havent brag about my day today! and here im soo gonna post about today!
what i love bout my day today is i went out with the girls and we went for excapade! yess! dont hate me cause im bragging too much about excapade! and ah ah i dont care! went for excapade and finally! hays im full and feel bloated till now!
heaven parut ku these few days! no diet ni..

umie said aku makan cemani my eyes mcm kan tekluar! hahahahaha!

and i had fun =D

SPANKIN NEW!

2010-01-25T00:36:00.003+08:00

just before i off to bed :

PICTURE OF THE DAY!

NOOO! SRSLY! I LOVE THIS PIC!
okay goodnight!

waaalaaaaaaa

2010-01-24T15:09:00.003+08:00

this boredom has forced me to blog!
im bored!
eh eh eh eh

tis is kemarin! kami go green yesterday! were wearing greeen! and went to mcd! for 'dabalchissssbaga' and it was AWSUM! haih yesterday is LOVED! hehehehehe!
ahh yess tis pic above macam apa -_-

HAHAHAHAHA! BAIE!

and im eating like theres no tomorrow every weekends! and when the weekdays start, i dont eat that much and yess i did exercise cause im hopping i can loose weight this month! before february is comin!

and okay,
i have to go i wanna help the maid doing something for tomorrow!
i'll continue laters as if.. i got something to blog!
chiaw chiaw
EX OH!

its just something that i shud be careless about

2010-01-22T17:29:00.004+08:00

im just hmm im afraid of being too emo tis lately its because... AHHHHH! FORGET IT!
well hi =D
i blog today its just because im bored. well its friday i love friday but friday will always be boring! got nothing to do today i took a nap hmm which is actually im not sleeping cause i still can feel that im awake and i still can heard some of the annoying sounds form the next door of my rum. i went off to bed early in two days straight WOAW! AWESOME ME! cause i tried to ignore things that i shudnt care which i shud be careless about it! i dont wanna be that stupid waitting for something which is not worth to wait! i dont want thoughts in my head stuck all about this AHHH WHATEVER! srsly i hate it =( .....

cause this lately ive been listening to something way too emotional and i got way too sensitive about a small matters. its not that i need attention its just i dont know >=/

just cut that crap off! kuyak ni hatiku vavi! lets move on to.. ah this picture above...
last weekends was SAKDIP ! eh no lah.. AWSUMESSSS! the very! we took a lot of picture but none of the picture i look perfect! i can see that my belly is like a SSSHIT! parut ku wah buncit! im fat! fugly fat! tapi days with them was BERABIS AWESOME! and until i got tanned standing under the sun for the whole day then in the evening lemungrasssing! which is suppose to be escapade hahahahaha! LOL! okay enuf bout it.

OOOOUUUUU~~ one of my favourite!
very much gay! =8D

okayy byeeeeee!
okay wait.....

i miss KL !

you got me me smilling all the way long!

2010-01-14T20:55:00.002+08:00

haiiih!
was about to blog yesterday then i changed my mind! cause ngalih! plus lot of things that annoyed me happened this lately! and im so not liking it! but theres only one reason for me to smile! hehehehe! =8p
woke up very early today at 7ish then i continued back at nearly to 8! and i just dont like my sleeping pattern! i used to woke up very early everyday! and im not this girl who always woke up at 11ish anymore. cause as usual i always woke up before 10 or before 9. haih early riser meh~ cause i love waking up in the morning. tapikan antah eh vavi mata ku sudah alarm ku bunyi at 9 then i ignored i woke up at 10! vavi kan! then..
what i love about today is..

it rained for the whole day
elin came over and brought along ze nasi penyet kesukaan ku!
i get to play with the rain tadi! iksin ku usai paip dibawah panya aku main ujan! muahahahaaha.
youuuuuu! =8P

i just love how things slowing down right now and entah i just feel awesome =D

so long...... ='(

2010-01-08T23:37:00.004+08:00

well hellooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!

so here is my confession!

i went to miri today and was planing to cut my front hair pasal my front hair is veryyy vayi straight like VWAVISH!! cause yess! i straightened my hair which is im not gonna do it actually pasal after i straightened my hair with wella straight my hair jadi wavy which is actually aku suka butttttt! antah eh =( then kaliiii kaliiii this hairdresser ya mau gunting and trim the whole aku punya rambut pasal i got banyak split ends kali at first aku cakap i dont want pasal sayang! rambut ku! coz i wanna keep it long dulu then baru trim pasal it took a life time kali ah for me to biar kan this hair panjang! and i have to curl also just to make my hair grew faster! okay apakan back to the story kalinya... i was so kesian kan since ya kan mau trim my hair kali i let her to trim my hair kali what happened??????? pindik jua tu!! vavi eh! ku cakap jgn pindik kali pindik jua lakat ni!

ni pindik cemani =/
nadawah iksin =8p
this is the real one ! ni dbwh ah!

and pls im not happy banarnya but i have to smile krg bida gambar ku HAHAHAHA!
and before my hair turns out like this im very happy with the length of my actual hair which is
aniii!!!!!!!! panjang ohhhh. now the hair is singan my chest iskk *cried ='(

bah k. bye! mintal ku.

lovelove

2010-01-06T22:43:00.002+08:00

i just realised that i collect this!

eh -_-

2010-01-06T10:37:00.003+08:00

hey!
morning!

this is bitch! im back with korean series and im currently watching BOF! wuuuw. this is a serious shit to me! plus plus...

he is EFF cute! mukanya macam jerry f4 kan?

ehh au my post hehe random -_-
i got nuffin to say but i feel like blogging bout this. ahh about my random post im a so yesterday person kan? this thing was like last year sudah org tengok but i just starting to like this series this year. sheeeeesh. kesian much?

dot dot

2010-01-03T14:39:00.002+08:00

my bbgurl just turned 19th!
oooooooooh sorry this was last year but i still wanna post this !
brrrrrahs.

hi

2010-01-01T13:35:00.000+08:00

bonjour 2010 woohue!

woo hoo holiday

2009-12-29T18:12:00.010+08:00

im updating my blog!
and yess i went for a vacation! for 7 days! everything was fun but too bad i was hoping that us could go to ze beach at manukan! but unluckily NDA! instead we spent our 7 days in kk shopping! banyak sale! and until it made me hard to make a decision on what to buy and i ended up with last minute shopping! was very sakai jua lah at first! cause kk has changed a lot! the last time i went to kk.. hmf when i was still 13 or 14 maybe? couldnt recall back. i didnt shop a lot i just bought some of the clothes which is hardly to be seen in brunei or miri. my very fav place to go at the shopping mall is F.O.S! yess indeed! ehh wait lets the pictures do the talking yeah!

first day
tembird.
KEBANGAANYA! she just killed the lipas! hahaha!
second day
we finally arrived in KK!

third day
aku pindik =/

NINE WEST! shizzzzz the heels lawa lawa only for 99rm gile!

fourth day
babah ku COOL! peace!

fifth day
im in a rush.
2nd hotel the place is veryyyyy cosy!
making my self FAT!

sixth day
supposed to be home by this day but babah decided to stay for another one night.
woohuu!

the view from our rum
our very last place to stay
i sucked at this!

seventh day
before we heading back to brunei.

bah! im done and im still tired -_-

after a long day

2009-12-29T11:05:00.003+08:00

and im finally home WOO HOO

i'll update soon lah! cz im too tired to grab the pictures from my another lappy soon lah karangkah as if im not that tired to update cz im still tired right now! lalah! my whole body is aching and i just wanna stay in bed for the whole day!

oooh awu i havent cleaned up my rum and updating my wardrobes. soon lah.

my weekends was just awsum

2009-12-21T13:09:00.007+08:00

im calling it a day!
i had fun! went out yesterday to the beach and lemongrass-ing! spent good evening at the beach and gud fud! all and all you guys really made my days! thanks to nien and the gays thank you for stopping by at my place.

i hate my now hair too straight! and too nipis macam apa -_-

ooooooh yeah! i need to pack! hmf =/

aand one thing i need to loose weight im fat =/ my arms is way too big and i hate it ! i hate hows life treat me right now. i hate when im too stresssed i ate way too much like a pig! banci ku eh!

c'est la vie mon amour

2009-12-16T19:08:00.004+08:00

bbluv ;-p

im home! im back bitching with my brother's :-D
and im still curious about this song 'c'est amour' tapi idk whats the title of this song i know the chorus saja kali sudah ku searched thru website there's soo many 'c'est amour' and 'c'est amour stucked! inside my head.

aku malas kan google something yg i really wanted to know.

im fat already :-S

i miss skyping with navil. its been a while.

jaded

2009-12-15T15:18:00.002+08:00

jello there!
i havent gone home since last tuesday and im still at elin. a lot of unexpected things happened this lately and i hate it! i hate it when someone trying so hard to bring me down again! and i hate it when the trouble between me and my good friends that were not talking like usual! i hate it when there have to be someone who always come in between us. why cant i have my life? why cant i just be happy and not to worry about all those stuffs! please bah please! =/

one word to describe about this situation = 'jaded' !!!

almost semua badan ku itchy and even my face pun! and im allergic to something. for now i need time and i just need to be away. just give me a break!

almost everything i did and every place that i go reminds me of you. youre still here =( sigh. brahh.

goodbye

2009-12-13T01:22:00.003+08:00

go ahead and hit me with all you got
go ahead and break me apart
go ahead and break this heart
merci =')

cause its always been you

2009-12-12T18:20:00.003+08:00

tell me what more can i do to make you go away from my mind.
ive been thinking about you ever since things between us went so wrong.
cant say i didnt try to get you out of my mind i tried but it seems like you've taken everything inside of me. you just dont know that everytime you talk to me my heart beats even more faster and i miss you everyday. ive been wanted to hate you but i just cant cause you, you got that something that makes me turn my back and get back to you and be there for you. tell me how pathetic i am. sigh.

my day has been great full of smile and laughter. im fine im doing just fine.

skaip!

2009-12-04T00:44:00.006+08:00

im starting to like skype! i just had a video call thru skype with navil just now! and siuk! and i love my skype sound alerts when people clicked me hahahaha! kiut wah! and i just did something to my hand!

you see!
bah bye happy friday !

=)

2009-11-30T11:59:00.003+08:00

hi .
im going to make this blog public.
me this morning! bangas!
will update more soon baby!

i miss you =(

2009-11-16T01:21:00.001+08:00

and i just want things back the way they were, find a way back to your heart

2009-11-05T18:02:00.000+08:00

skruuume!

depressi

2009-11-04T23:58:00.003+08:00

i feel like blogging!
im having a very very intense situation right now! im having my another big exam tomorrow and guess what i havent prepare anything YET! not even once. im sitting for geo paper two and which is i always sucks on paper two! this was my 227890 times taking geo o's exam nada dih! HAHA and this is what happened when you spend too much time sitting infront of your laptop for 247 browsing and googling for nothing! now what did i get from my 247 internet i got NOTHING! exams starts tomorrow and what makes me sad is im not really working hard on my exam. plus plus suppose to be tomorrow i shud be with all my families sending elins parents to airport for the haji. then then i just couldnt make it esok! and it made me really sad! really really sad and breakdown! i wish i'll be there! i dont wanna miss those moment. haiz =(

and and what really bugging me is i miss him. him him him! just as if i could get back my november and december last year and bring it back right now i would sacrfice anything! tapi aku iksin saja! =( i miss you and i dont want you to know and it really gives me pain in the ass ! =') but i move on cause i wont get anything good in return if i hope for you to come back and make me smile like you used to! ishh emo kann =( cause i miss being that speacial to someonelah !!

ait mornight labs.

unttitled

2009-10-29T11:11:00.003+08:00

hey!
im having a great time this lately! october this year is awesome! =D

i hope it is not too late for me to say 'happy 20th birthday to elin' haiz she just turned 20!

this picture was taken on the 27th of october this is my last minute plan actually! and we made it!

my 10 days great escape!

2009-10-22T21:36:00.002+08:00

havent update about my 10 day's get away from brunei. i had soo much fun for 10 day's in KL eventho i get upset because i dint get the chance to watch the all american rejets live which is suppose to be on th 10th of oct at one utama but has been postponed to this 31st holyshiz! then shopping was great! had a goodtime splurging my money! all and all everything was FUN! sorry i dun haf much pictures to post coz facebook got all the pictures already! heish not all lah! now im back home im back with my boring-ness.
i became more boring when azie has started working on her job! haiz anak gila ani berakal sudah ya! yknow eversince she got this job my life hasnt been the same like it used to be esehh! like cause we used to had this late night convo with navil and talking about something cra ahh you know you know! heishhz no more fun for this one girl!!

dont read this unless if youre interested with what im talkin about

2009-10-21T14:41:00.003+08:00

"you'll get your chance one day (:" -HAMAGHAD!!!! i went so hyper after i read this!!! i'll hold this 'one day' i wish i get to see AAR live since they've cancelled their concert on 10th of oct while at that time i was in KL but it was just not my luck and i hope to see them live one day! one day babyyyy!!! its either AAR or BLG im gonna waitt for that no matter how long it will takes for me to wait.

sorry if i look so sekadar haha ish biartia!!!! dont care!

im leaving

2009-10-05T18:30:00.002+08:00

aku suka makan kepala urg and i dunno everytime i poses with other aku suka pigang bahu hahahaha. i know and macam over hahaha.

2nd weeks of raya was the best for me. i can tell that i had bunch of friends that came to my place eventho im miles away from everyone. hehe. just a quick update i guess before im leaving. i'll be off to somewhere by ta'morrow night. so i'll be expecting for a simple and sweet text messages from my girls haha i know sekadar haaaaa. bah text me text me! or call me before my flight. alright chiao.

EXOW.

eid

2009-09-25T14:52:00.003+08:00

yaw my baby is back hrhrhr.
my first day raya was okie than my second,third,fourth is dem bored!
i still dint get the chance to see 'abg london' i heard he'll be leaving today :-( haha iskisk. balik tia. im counting day's till 6th oct. i'll be leaving soon ;D haiz dun have much pictures for raya.
im currently plug in my ear and listening to - 'two is better than one' awesome song by the way especially when taylor swift is in this song. dem it! i luvluv. just a short update actually he he he. i wanna watch the hills tapi babah liat tv tah jua iissshh. bah vyez

'i remember what you wore on the first day, you came into my life and i thought 'hey you know this could be something' '...

im holding onto something and i do not know why

2009-09-20T02:53:00.004+08:00

babi eh nda dapat di rotate! pakdawg!
yesterday was a day. i called it a day a big thanks to umie for the sungkai treat and the outing was de best unfortunately elin had to rushed home early. so we missed elin. mall was packed with many people. i actually dint see any familiar faces which is i was waitting for my whole life kan teclash with 'abg london' tapi too bad not my luck ah :-'( banci ku!
back to yesterday story, haha it was fun! eventho most of the moment kami banyak rushing so like macam banyak nda sempat and my mom texted me many times asking me where am i and she reminded me banyak kali not to be there at giant giant ahir but aku ahir last2nya! haha tapi nasib they dint get mad at me ah . aku kaya yesterday but i was surprised with myself that i dint bought too much stuff. i only bought eye liner which is so rare to me to buy eye liner i dont know why, it was all of sudden and FYI im not the kind of girl who likes to wear eyeliner. sinting ah!
all and all they ♥ made my day turns into laughter.

yo! i only had time for blogging i havent check my facebook just yet and also havent go online pun! bah isuk tah saja ngalih ku today. was busy this lately i just got back home and im extremely tired i need a good sleep & warm bath after my sahur. lapas ani lah! dunno ah why i had this mood for blogging pasal awal2 i wanna do blogging like esok kah or maybe th next day kali kan banyak tia idea ku so before all my thoughts will be gone and vanish imma do blogging today! i had soo much today. just dont mind about my lenghty post ah! haha.
nah ani emo tia ku. kalikan i was browsing thru my purse tadi then i pulled out this two ticket and i still keep it with me. oo boy how could i forget you when everything you left with me was the sweetest things ive ever had. i still keep this two pink panther movie tickets it was on the month of february was actually my last minute plan to bring him out for movie at first i thought he couldnt make it since he was to busy at that time kali last last he ended up like he cancelled his plan on that day and he joined me and others watching movie. awwww :') and as i remembered he told me that he was happy to see me on that day aiii!! shizzz. i hate this. am i missing someone? hurhur ofcourse i do. i miss him :( i miss all our good time i miss all the silly jokes and talking to him about some random stuffs then i miss our 'i miss you like crazeh' i miss him texting me in the middle of the night telling me he fell asleep lah apalah. bah malas panjang2 lagi. full stop!
...if only i had a chance to be with you again and you could come back to me and tell me that you miss having me around....
taaaa! daaa~
ignore the shitezz background. haha no worries rose your picture is still there.
bah i wanna go shower eh nda help my mama dulu then bed bed im running out of energy at this moment all i want is redbull! and fags maybe? hahaha. bah off i go.
not ta forget
happy eid mubarak to all muslim
assalamualaikum (eseh! :-D)
adios amigos

yo dawg !

2009-09-17T00:25:00.001+08:00

havent sleep yet instead i eat eat and eat
gamok ni krg :-S

that girl is a genius

2009-09-16T21:17:00.003+08:00

haiz i currently listening to 'jet' the video clip was balik balik pulang main on mtv but i really dont like that song at first kali when i watched the video clip like everyday and the song stickes on my head. i kindda luv thiz song yeahz.

another my new obsession fer now is i like 'dj' i like the way they play ze record and spin em. whoa! imma tell u that i like 'samantha ronson' yeahz lindsay luver. but i like her. ooo shizz im feelin gay :-S haha !

i hate my twitter pasal the trending topics for now is pasal this 'kanye and taylor' then same goes with my tumblr one day without seeing 'kanye' pictures on the dashboard inda sah! pakbii ooo .l. i never really liked kanye btw :-/ because all of his song was lame and bida! bah dont wanna talk bout kanye.

here goes my last post is about 'a girl' who's turning a year older tomorrow ha ha.
and just incase i fell asleep early today imma post this early, haha sorry qah ah too early ah and pls tell me that im the first one who greeted u on yer birthday eventho yg banarnya inda hahaha pls qahh!! haha. you still owe me 'roman holiday' ah ah :-D

yo shugaahz! happy 18th birthday
enjoy yer day being 18th . mwa.
wuvswuvs ♥

itz about noy i wanna talk about

2009-09-14T01:17:00.002+08:00

back then when your hair was still long and curly hahaha.

happy birthday sweetie :-D

turn my pain to passion instead of crashin

2009-09-14T01:03:00.001+08:00

whaaaazaaaahhhh?

got beaten by temptation

2009-09-10T20:29:00.003+08:00

im repeating rain - love song on my playlist. never thought that i would love this song. haha. im bored btw. our astro has been cut off i guess. i got nuffin to watch tonait. ah yeah tomorrow there'll be 'mtv world stage live in malaysia' again!! but too bad astro nda baik :/

well, just so yknow. yesterday i was in a relatiosnhip since it was a nice date 09.09.09 so there was this guy wanted me to be his one day gf. ah yeah talkin bout this guy, i seriously got no feeling towards him :-S i felt sorry for him tho. cause he seems like deeply in love with me but i myself, i just cant get him under myskin and it was totally awkward and i felt soo soo stupid. but thank god it ended at 12 mid and im back with my single life. i just dont think it was my fault for not fallin back at him. cause ahh yknow i had a hard time to fall in luv with some one which i never meet in my real life.

eh aku cerita apakan?

bah thats all i got to get back to my tumblr. peaceluv!

your hair on my pillow with your smell on my sheets

2009-09-08T19:41:00.003+08:00

this is awkward to me coz its been a while i never elaborate things like this. ive been so lazy to blog and im not that interested with blogging tho. what makes me not that interested in blogging you ask? the answer will be haha malas.

i watched crows zero today all i can say about the movie was 'rugged' oo i mean rugged wah this boy. cant remember the name. but i fell asleep bilanya kan abis. but seriously the movie was awesome.

im going to have coffee after this cause i wanna get so hyper. haha.

and nah! i present you my boyfriend ♥
hihihihi <:o)

bah bye. x!

:)

2009-09-08T04:47:00.001+08:00

yo! hows my dead blog going on?

2009-08-13T00:03:00.000+08:00

this site is dead
come and visit me at
nhoymohmad.tumblr.com

never left me hangging

2009-07-13T18:37:00.004+08:00

hey monday!

you know what i did today, i cleaned up my room and also i did the vacuum. the stupid thing is i forgot to watch the city damn it! due to i was busy doing my cv. seriously i havent eat my lunch since afternoon pasal aku lupa jua.
one thing i need to do tonight is belajar! stop with the internet life.

i luv this part.

and also i had this for myself -

i know, stop spending money on something unnecessary.
arrrrrright i got it i got it!

i think im going to watch push latur

the last thought in my mind

2009-07-11T13:00:00.002+08:00

how will everything in my life is going to end ?
start counting day for happiness

rot me in hell

2009-07-05T17:25:00.002+08:00

i suppose to go to dhamien birthday celebration but entah them parents couldnt make it dont ask me why! i cried i missed all the good time ive just wasted my my hour getting ready and decide what to wear. its just like youre not allowed to go to your very very bestfriend birthday party which youre dying to go. the story same goes to me. cause i really wanted to meet all of the family cause things like this family gathering is not always happen. they dont know how much i miss this place.

i really need to get away from this house for a while i cant take it anymore :-'(

2009-06-28T13:27:00.001+08:00

everyone...

remember the day

2009-06-27T23:45:00.001+08:00

awesome people

dying

2009-06-27T20:05:00.003+08:00

current desktop background.

right now im dying to watch transformers. :'''''''''(

no title for this post

2009-06-26T12:09:00.004+08:00

the death of MJ (michael jackson) is everywhere and the news about his death spread very fast.

MJ, my fav when i was still a kid. may he rest in peace.

and yesterday was awesome (-:

if i were a boy HAHA

2009-06-22T23:41:00.002+08:00

turns me on! hahahaha nadawah!
cause she looks like a male isnt she?
im gay for agyness deyn woo hoo!

lets rock de runaway

2009-06-21T14:58:00.001+08:00

i present you Alexa Chung

dead

2009-06-19T23:23:00.003+08:00

i just knew that donatello versace and gianni versace is just the same.
random -_- .

went to grandmommy house today.
i think my brother is ngek cause when i asked him wheres the phone charger he answered me he dont know. hell yeah. he let me borrowed his phone but he dont even know where the hell the charger is. talking about my phone, yess my phone is dead i bought it few months ago and now my phone is baie and babi.

i slept two days in a row in my brother bedroom the aircond was (Y). seriously. tonight i think im gonna sleep in my room. the fan is okay now.

i wanna watch the hills. chiao.
exow.

little baby turns 1 year old

2009-06-18T11:03:00.002+08:00

happy birthday little dhamien ♥
still i cant believe he turns one year old today :-D

waitting for the sunrise

2009-06-17T02:57:00.002+08:00

its 2.58am now i dont why on earth im still wide awake.

maybe its because i was thinking what to eat for my tomorrow morning then theres this i dea popped out ; scramble egg,toast,french fries or maybe sausage . mannn! im hungry. shit!

so for tomorrow morning im gonna make a very nice breakfast for my self and watch the hills and continue to hate heidi's fiance in that story. i know actually heidi and spencer is married in the reality. HA HA whatever.

i should have fall asleep cause i woke up early yesterday exactly at 9.30am then i had my peanut butter toast on my bed and enjoying my series.

i got nothing much to do tho yesterday. i spent the whole day in my room surfing through the internet and kept on drooling over the shirts the dress the heels and more. then i imagined that i was wearing all those stuff. it would be nice if what im imagined it will all come true. thats what unemployed person like me always do. then in the afternoon i watched tv then i ended up watching 'the boygirl things and mtv movie awards 09' this time i watched it till the last. nuff bout the yesterday.

i just realised that channel is the most very popular for this fashion season. every girl gone mad for this channel bag. well who doesnt love channel baby.

ahh im talking crap.

today is wednesday and tomorrow is thurday 18th its dhamien 1 yr old birthday!! aww he grow up so fast i just cant believe now dhamien is turning to 1 year old then next year 2 years old. he should have know how to walk now! i missed that cute lil creature havent seen him for a month )-: and also i missed having a good time with elin. right now she's in thailand how dare she dint tell me that she's leaving. hahaha. she's having her good theeaphy after exam im sure thailand will makes her go crazzeeeeeeee.

haahahaha rumah is boring. i just feel like i wanna packs my things and go for a vacation and enjoy the holiday. but seems like this is another boring holiday. for the vacation might be miri again hmm -_- life is not that fun enough just like my life back in 05-07.

enough im too tired to type i wanna sleep but i just cant. blah blah.

out of love

2009-06-15T00:13:00.001+08:00

if im being nice to other people it doesnt mean that i can easily fall for them, no matter how sweet they are. true!

i just....

2009-06-14T00:40:00.000+08:00

dont wanna fall in love.......

2009-06-13T21:01:00.001+08:00

sometimes i just feel like i wanna run from this house
seriously! they made me gone mad.
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